Grace in the Ruins: Finding God in My Recovery
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
— 2 Corinthians 12:9
There was a time when I thought I was too far gone. The weight of addiction, shame, and broken choices buried me so deep, I couldn’t imagine ever feeling whole again. My soul was numb, and my heart—silent.
But God was not.
“Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me.”
— Psalm 23:4
The Breaking Point
My breaking point wasn’t loud. It was quiet—sitting alone in my room, tired of pretending I was okay. I whispered a desperate prayer, not even expecting an answer. “God, if You’re real, help me.” That moment changed everything.
Faith Began in Fragility
Recovery didn’t start with strength; it started with surrender. I stopped trying to fix myself and let grace meet me in my mess. I went to a recovery group. I opened up to people. I started reading scripture again—not to perform, but to survive.
Each verse was like breath in my lungs.
The Slow Rebuild
Faith didn’t magically erase my pain, but it gave it purpose. With every step—going to meetings, choosing truth over hiding, forgiving myself—I felt a little more alive. A little more seen. I realized God wasn’t waiting for the “perfect” me. He loved me in my ruins.
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
— 2 Corinthians 12:9
What I Know Now
If you’re in recovery, or just holding on by a thread, know this: God’s not afraid of your brokenness. He steps into it. He stays through it. And He walks with you out of it.
You are not your worst moment. You are not beyond healing. Grace is real. I know, because I’ve lived it.
